Can we fight to save our souls?

I'm a compilation of boredom, pessisism, and contempt. 

"What good is a long life to us if it is hard, joyless and so full of suffering that we can only welcome death as a deliverer?"

-Freud


Eat that, world.

Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off.


Maybe that's why I love this movie so much.
Eh, I got nothing. But this is it.

I'm so pissed right now.

FUCK THE MARINE CORPS.

No offense to anyone in it, but I'm done.
Yep, I'm out.
 

Lukas Edringer

Police and Society

February 18^th, 2009

Gary Brown on the Criminal Justice System

            Distinguished alumni Gary Brown graced us with his presence at midday, February 18^th, 2009. He spoke for a good half hour regarding his ridiculously long career involving his scuffle with former Detroit mayor Kwame Kilpatrick. Gary Brown started his college career in 1971, attending Wayne County Community College. After two years he joined the Marine Corps to give himself a better chance to make it in the Detroit Police Department. After being honorably discharged from the Marines, he went on to enroll in the Federal Bureau of Investigation academy to give himself an even greater edge. Over the next twenty or so years, he became a recruiter and hired in over 2,000 new police during his time there. He also became commander of the 1^st, 3^rd, 9^th, and 11^th precincts until he was honored with the glorious title of Deputy Police Chief of the DPD. He became god-like and shiny to all who saw him. In fact, no one could look him directly in the eyes without exploding. Not even Chuck Norris could challenge him in his home city.

            One day, while doing his job and investing a case in Detroit, Mr. Brown was inexplicably fired. It was for reasons regarding former mayor Kilpatrick and was not justified. For five long years after the incident, Gary fought relentlessly to protect his reputation and try to bring the corrupt mayor Kwame to justice. Once the text messages surfaced, the case was basically finished and Mr. Brown had won his long struggle. Currently, Gary Brown is expecting to run and heavily win a seat on the Detroit City Council. Whereas he will carry out his plans to turn all injustice into justice and void Detroit of all the honkies. Killing them secretly if he has to. He will be merciless and leave no survivors. WE ARE ALL DOOMED.

-FIN.

P.S.- Yes, I turned this in as an assignment to my Police and Society professor. What will the outcome be?

So, been awhile. Status update.

This semester of classes is goin really well. Like I actually like and attend the classes on a regular basis. And coming from me thats a lot.

I'm addicted to wow, I said i'd never play it but now i can't stop. It's okay cause i don't pay for it, which is a total justification. Let's see, other than that I have a crush on a supermodel. Which happens to be the model of snowboard I bought. I can't go snowboarding enough, its probably the best thing ever since...well, forever. I'm so addicted to that too. We're hitting up Boyne Mountain next weekend. It is gonna be insanely awesome and i'm pumped. Been goin to Holly every week basically. Landing huge ass jumps. Got massive air yesterday and smashed my knee trying to jump a fence. haha bruises.

I rock...and roll.

 

Now I can't tell if you're laughing,
Between each smile there's a tear in your eye
There's a train leaving town in an hour
It's not waiting for you, and neither am I.
 

 

Alright, so the movie is coming along nicely. I'm gonna start writing some sort of script next week. I have the whole storyboard basically figured out. I'm pumped.

Oh, on top of that, i just found out, yes just now, at 1:14am... that i get eight fucking credits for college just for attending OCS for six weeks. eight goddamn credits. that is so freaking awesome. I now am able to graduate on time which means may of 2010 instead of december of the same year. oh god i'm excited. not that i care about finishing college early, because i don't want to get in the real world anything but it means that the six weeks of hot humid hell in virginia this summer meant something more than 6 weeks of hot humid hell.

anyways, i'm all sorts of awake and hyper right now. fucking queen is probably one of the greatest bands to exist. i don't care that freddie mercury is a huge fucking homo. geez i swear a lot when i'm hyper.

onnnnnnn another note. i have one exam to take til the end of this semester. and its online. ands its chemistys. anyone wanna take it for me? thats good at chem, cause god knows i never paid attention nor really went to class. i'll give you anything you want provided its under 10 bucks. hahahahahhahaha.

anyways, more queeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen.
i heart queen.

bitch. 

I'm in the process of creating a movie.

Anyone want to be in it? I start shooting in spring.
I'm getting a cast list and script together now.

Seriously, let me know.

 

I just woke up, and for some reason am no longer tired. So here I am...I guess.

Obama won, so can we never talk about anything related to any sort of election ever again? I'm so ridiculously sick of election talk. Yeah i may have given up my democratic rights by not voting but who honestly gives a shit? you think anything is really going to be different with obama rather than mccain? or would have been any different had mccain won? no. Obama's stepping in after the worst, lowest rated president in history. We'll just see what he, or anyone for that matter, will be able to do.

whoever wins, we lose.

on another note, i've decided what i want to do with my life.
nothing.
I think once i get my degree in a year and a half i'm going to do absolutely nothing.
I've realized that there is not a single job that fully captures my interest. which in turn means that i would end up hating that job. which means it would be over.

so...nothing.
thats my plan.
I plan to not have a plan.
fuck economic and social slavery.
fuck contracts.
I control me, and I do what I say.
and i'm getting pretty damned good at it.

I don't think there's enough space in this entry for my ego.
god i'm awesome.



march on worker bees.
I'll be living my dreams.


 

So, not even a week of being home and i'm tired of it. Being gone for six weeks made me forget how much this place sucks. I don't really know how i let myself forget, but its sad that i would rather be in Quantico being yelled at then here sometimes. Parts of me wish i was still there, or rather, anywhere but here. I really just want to fucking disappear. and i don't give a shit where to or for how long.

I think i expected too much. like i thought everything would be okay, that shit would be find, that i actually expected to be happy. HA. maybe find some sort of fucking "normal" whatever the fuck that means and somehow things would just be somewhat different in even some minute way. but i was wrong, 6 weeks obviously wasn't long enough.

Fuck me, i'm just upset. Over stupid fucking things that shouldn't upset me, yet they do. Why? I don't fucking know why. I'm so fucking frustrated with everything and everyone. But you know what, i am better than this. I'm just going to hold my head up high and continue on down the merry fucking road.

tldr: FUCK YOU MICHIGAN.